create it

... the lights have come down (OR THEY SHOULD BE DOWN!!!)... the tree has found a new home in the nearest dumpster and we anxiously await the adventure that will be 2007. In the next month we will spend a great deal of time agonizing over how to change the most ridiculous things (as though the other 11 months of the year have the title "I CAN BE A LAZY ASS" attached to them)... from diets to fitness... no drinking to the patch. Things I like to refer to as January-isms. The, more than not, half ass attempt at better-ing ourselves for the sake of vanity. I mean come on... all the things we start and usually fail at have very little or no other relevance than vanity. CAPITAL V-A-N-I-T-Y.
Now don't send me a ton of bullshit comments about how "change is good" and "what's wrong with becoming a better person"... blah, blah, blah. Of course those statements are true but one must be a CONSTANT work in progress... not a seasonal one.
I believe that to achieve real CHANGE you have to know WHY YOU WANT IT. We can strive to look thinner, stop drinking, stop smoking, eat better, work out more and do all the other (usually) short lived resolutions... but if in the privacy of the soul we only want the surface... we are destined to fail.
It has to be about more.
I think our problem comes from a media induced stupor that has become all too accepted. It's about looking younger, being thinner, having more... more of what? Things that will fade? Empty relationships?
I ask you to think harder this year as you plan your self improvements. Do something to truly change your life and those around you. Stop looking to others to define your worth... create it.